Captain Nemo

my heart is pounding with how wonderful it is to be with you right now, Jamie, we’re under that play structure again, your hair is messy, and you have that little quiver… you’re my little boy that you’ve always been, that I’m holding close to me, close to my heart… and I feel you hugging me back… leaning into me… the trust and bond deepening… I love you so much… we go way back you and I …. off roads Jamie… its kinda cool that you know that I’m cut off from Sarah rn… cuz its a pretty wierd up and down of life… I’m tired of pretending I got it all figured out… its like, now you have a messed up family of your own, Jaxon, Ember, twitface… you better F*(%& know I mean Ria LOL… and you’re up here in the wheel house, you’ve found your way down the stairs, from up there… I’m captain Nemo… and you’re skip… your eyes open wide, and you’re still half asleep… there’s a cross grid of ancient submarine technology just beyond me there… my navigator and pilot are keeping it “steady as she goes” and though it might surprise us all… I’m not trying to shoo you back upstairs… “whatcha doin’ Daddy…” I put my arm around you, (I’m standing on a chair so that I’m tall enough) and we turn to look out into the abyss together just as it swims past… the pilot and navigator give out a little yelp, I firmly, but not too loudly, “hold’r steady boys” you’ve just wiped your eyes again, and you’re not afraid, as my embrace holds you tight… that’s what I like about waking dreams… cuz you are of course your own Captain Nemo, with your own little boy and girl, who come sneaking down the stairs now and then… to come along side you… this is the control centre, son/daughter… Alles in Ordnung…