Off Roads Jamie

My baby boy Jamie, he’d fall asleep when the stroller wheels would shake

Preferred the grassy boulevard over smooth asphalt roads and lanes

Called him “Off Roads Jamie” before he could speak

Guess he was training for life before he was three weeks

It’s only been lately that I noticed

My son’s never been deterred by rough miles

Then I remember bedtime stories

Brushing down Bailey, our favourite horse

Lying there side by side in the dark

Looking up where the ceiling disappeared into stars

And I learned how to be a daddy

By not being one real well

Raised my voice too quick sometimes

Tried to carry more than I could tell

But that boy kept lovin’ me anyhow

Like grace don’t scare easy somehow

Yeah he grew up watching all my flaws

And still calls me Dad with honour in his voice

Not long after he moved away

He called me laughing one late day

Said “Dad, I just heard myself say

The exact same thing to my roommate…”

There was silence… then we both cracked up

‘Cause suddenly he knew what growing up was

That light came on the way dawn breaks slow

Not with fireworks… just “Ohhh…”

And late into his twenties still

He’d phone me up when he got ill

“Dad… I just barfed…” at two A.M.

Like somehow I could still help him then

And it took him not calling anymore

For me to finally understand

A son don’t stop needing his daddy

He just needs him different than before

We’ve roasted each other mercilessly

Called him on his… and him on mine

Half stand-up comedy, half family therapy

Laughing till we’d both cry

And I love how he kept soldiering on through vows gone bad

Took the hits life handed him and still stayed a dad

Every weekend pouring himself

Into two little hearts that hug right back

And he’s me all over again somehow

But gentler where I didn’t know how

Still finds ways to honour me

That make an old man feel seen

Yeah “Off Roads Jamie” still rides on through

The bumps and jumps life sometimes holds

And maybe that’s why those old roads worked

Some hearts learn steady even when on rough roads