I can walk alongside the part of me that wants to waste time with my brothers and sisters in Christ. No agenda, no greater than less than. But abiding in Him that created me, and He in me.
I am his child. I am his “own one”
We are his children, we are his own ones!
Walking Down Vimy…
This image of walking down Vimy – the origin of my blog – came out of the remembrance of a walk from the bus stop at Portage Avenue and Vimy Road, to my home at 899 Vimy Road.
I spoke out loud, and heard the truth, I was fascinated because as I spoke, I was learning things that I didn’t know. I attributed it to being taught by God.
As I have sat with this experience for over 46 years… I have since learned that am a person who thinks best when I am thinking out loud. That’s either through writing or speaking to others, or in the case of me walking home from the bus stop, just talking to myself.
I am not prepared in any way to deny nor remove the part the Holy Spirit plays in all of this. The Holy Spirit definitely does this. Jesus promise to his disciple, and I am a disciple, a “Christ’s apprentice” – this is promised in John 14:26.
26 But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all things that I said to you.
But there is also the aspect of how grounded I feel. That I realize that this has been built into me by my creator. It isn’t exclusively mine! It is accessible to everyone.
- aside> and if it’s not possible for a person
- if a person is not capable of dealing with the existence of God
- then I don’t have to mention that part of it
- I can encourage them to write down their thoughts to hear their own thoughts without the intrusion of other people’s opinions
- and quite frankly without the intrusion of their own opinions
- This is what Anne Lamott says, for example, to write down the shitty first draft… go ahead and call it that name! But by all means, write it down, just as it comes out, just get it all down on paper, don’t edit yourself just let it flow out of you.
- Its very liberating to write this way, and is the doorway to genius. Because folks can smell a copy, and love originality
It is my unconscious mind coming through the barrier of my conscious mind which is clouded and cluttered with all of the SHOULDS AND OUGHTS that have been. . . how should I put this?!? I’ve been hit over the head with them! Shoulds and oughts – that are told to me through TV, movies, books, magazines, social media, through interpersonal relationships, and so many other places –
Where someone else tells me how to think!
…and there’s room for all of that input, but I must first deal with what I am actually thinking! What I am actually feeling! Before I can consider how those thoughts are hurting me, formulating me!
Ha! There we go! I didn’t bring that up, it came as I let my thoughts flow, and that word came up as a choice of what to type next! Its a word I remember from one of the most important bits of poetry in my life>
TS Elliot, The Love Song of J Alfred Prufrock, where he uses that phrase:
click here for the whole of Prufrock >
And I have known the eyes already, known them all—
The eyes that fix you in a formulated phrase,
And when I am formulated, sprawling on a pin,
When I am pinned and wriggling on the wall,
Then how should I begin
To spit out all the butt-ends of my days and ways?
And how should I presume?
And interestingly enough, its the thoughts – the intrusive thoughts of others upon me that went into my mind unchallenged, that I am now challenging! I’m searching around in my messy brain, for what belongs and what doesn’t belong! God’s word is my anchor, 2 Corinthians 10:3-5…
3 For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh. 4 For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, 5 casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ…
I am the one noticing the thoughts that are there. These thoughts do not define me, but they have limited me again and again.
Romans 12:1-2
Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
That’s a process of noticing insane behaviour… repeating the same things expecting different results I mean!
Click those links and see… confessing is our part… “God this is not your way… but its part of me… forgive me, lead me up and out!”
Enough for now.
Running Down Vimy 